Nothing to say…

to me: March 16, 2019 Sooooo, in mid January I sat down at the computer just to write that I had nothing new to say.  That I had not received any epiphany or sign about the direction in my life.  I thought that I should quickly read over what I had written to remind myselfContinue reading “Nothing to say…”

Getting nowhere…

to me: NOVEMBER 25, 2017 So, I have made no headway since my last email.  I haven’t made any progress in years.  I just get up, go to work, do whatever I need to after work, sleep and repeat.  It is a drain.  A fucking drain.  The only time I am really happy is whenContinue reading “Getting nowhere…”

Stuck in my career… ’bout to die…

to me: NOVEMBER 18, 2017 This is what stresses me out the most:  that I have to work and earn money in order to support myself and soon to be two kids in college.  I am stuck in teaching and have been for my entire career.  But I never had anyone to fall back onContinue reading “Stuck in my career… ’bout to die…”

Decided to share…

to me: NOVEMBER 13, 2017 So, I messaged three friends and asked them if they would be interested in what I am writing.  Two have said yes and I am still waiting on the third.  Maybe I will enjoy this more if I think someone is reading, maybe I won’t.  Actually, I just don’t knowContinue reading “Decided to share…”

When it all started…

to me: NOVEMBER 11, 2017 I am at a fucking crossroad.  I am literally, “on the brink.”  Of what? I cannot say for sure.  That’s the worst part, I think.  I know that I am there, that nowhere, distinct place.  It is ethereal. Well, that’s the word that popped into my head, but when I googledContinue reading “When it all started…”